A Warped POV by A. Dacosta Brathway

December 25th, Christmas Sunday... Hey, the NBA is back! And...?

A Warped POV by A. Dacosta Brathway

December 24th, Saturday... I truly understand the meaning of Christmas! I understand it because the secular meaning is some BS! I NEVER have any money at Christmas time! There is always some insane thing that happens to me that causes me not to be able to buy any presents! This year, my car broke down! Last year, I didn't have a job! Who knows what next year will bring? (I might be... well, you know...)
So, tomorrow will be quiet for me. I will think about the good times I had when I was a kid. I'll also think about when it all turned sour! I'll think about how cool it was that Jesus was born and all that we share in common. I will think about the unfortunate and how blessed I am to also be unfortunate. I will think about how homeless I am and how I don't eat regularly. I will think about not having my cell phone operating in case of an emergency because I ran up the bill with idle chit-chat conversations. I will think about how I have alienated myself because I trust no one. I will think about how I am not in love because I fell out of it a while back. I will think about how optimistically pessimistic I am! I will do a lot of thinking. But, what I will most think about is what will happen after New Years! In about a week I will have a new year to live the same life I have been living until next Christmas... Then, as now< I will experience Groundhogs Day when the vicious cycle repeats itself!

A Warped POV by A. Dacosta Brathway

November 25th,(Black) Friday... (Why is it called "Black Friday?") Okay, this is the time of year when I see contradictions in Society. Like it's Thanksgiving and people are supposed to be humbled but some seem to be very stressed out and just plain nasty. Crowds of people go shopping for gifts and mob scenes break out at stores with people fighting over material things! And... and, celebrities find it in their hearts to go to missions to serve the poor when the majority of their time, during the year, is to act like "assholes!" (Can you say "photo op?")
Why do I have such a hard time watching this BS transpire year after year? I think if I were in the position where I had to accept a handout, I would have to muster up some integrity from somewhere and not accept a plate from some bogus ass celebrity. (I would probably have the hook up in place where I would be out by where the trash bins are and have my boy slip me a plate through the side door or something...)
That being said, I am not feeling this time of year! I just want it to go away quickly...But, maybe I should not be in such a hurry for it to end. After all, 2012 is the year when the world is supposed to come to an end! Maybe all the photo celebrities will just disappear?

A Warped POV by A. Dacosta Brathway

December 24th, Thursday/ I hate the X'mas holiday! Hate it! Outside of it being Christ's birthday, X'mas is lost on me.I cannot get into the family thing. My family just happens to be dysfunctional so what's the point in getting together? All we do is argue. I'm tired of that shit!
I would rather stay where I am, sit on my ass, and let the holiday pass.I don't get presents, I don't feel "warm and fuzzy" when we all get together and I hold grudges from past family transgressions and trespasses against me. Grudges is all I have to fight the fight with. I would love to put my foot in some body's ass but you can't do that to family, can you? So, what I would rather do is be left alone. I don't want to know about my family's problems... I have my own. I am not interested in who is sick and shut in... I am sick and shut in. I keep hearing the argument that the family is old; I am old too. Have respect for my age and my aging process. Why do I have to endure everybody bullshit and not receive what I give in return?
I know this may (or may not) sound petty but that's what families do. They act petty with the understanding that you should understand their pettiness while they remind you of how petty you are being!
Next year, I will be doing a very private holiday thing. I will sit on my ass and let the holiday pass me by. I have grown out of honoring a present rather than honoring Jesus. Besides, being a member of a dysfunctional family, there is no point in buying presents anyway. Who knows any one's sizes?

CRAP/ My Journal by Al Brathway

October 8th, Monday/ Today is a holiday but it feels no different, to me, because I don't have a job... So what's the difference? Everyday is a holiday to me! However, this is the time of year, for me, where there are a series of holidays that effect me in the weirdest way. They are Holloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. These three holidays reming me of some real good times during my childhood. Man I enjoyed these three in particular. And, it wasn't just the holidays that did it for me... The anticipation of them was smokin'! As a matter of fact, the actual day was anticlimatic compared to the days prior to... But Father Time and adulthood has ruined everything for me. I don't even get pleasure watching kids go through the anticipation process. I'm like, "...let's just get them over with already!" And, to "add insult to injury," the new year comes in after Christmas and my birthday is in that month. Then I become a year older and fall deeper in the abyss of depression. (Hey, I'm in the last third of my life!) Soon it will be all over for me! Then what? Hell? (Are there holidays down there like the ones up here?)/ CRAP!